It’s a concept I have been working on in many areas of my life. It’s not easy to do, and it requires continual focus.
I have been frustrated over the past two weeks. Actually, it’s been longer than that. I did the math over and over, and knew I “should be” receiving my Invitation imminently. The Peace Corps literature says the application process, on average, takes 6 to 12 months. I’m at the 9-month mark. Funny, I could have had a baby in this time! In some ways, I feel like I am about to give birth — birth to a new life.
Getting comfortable with the “not knowing.” Another concept that’s difficult to embrace, and also takes practice. I knew I was going into the Peace Corps. I wasn’t having second thoughts, or doubts about my decision to serve. Yet, not knowing when I was leaving was starting to get to me. Daily, people asked me if I had heard yet. Some days I would say, “No,” and leave it at that. Other days, I responded with a greater level of frustration. Then something changed.
I had been thinking about which part of this process I could have control over. I couldn’t control when I would receive my Invitation, or when I would be leaving. I knew I needed to move out of my home. I knew I needed to reduce my expenses. And then, I had an epiphany (I love that word!) I needed to let go of the “not knowing,” and move forward. I was driving home from the gym when I decided I would put my house up for rent April 1st and move to a friend’s house in Maryland. I called another friend in Virginia and asked her if I could stay with her one night a week so I could continue to serve my Virginia-based clients. I had taken back control.
About an hour after I got home from the gym, I received the call from the Peace Corps. It’s clear I wasn’t going to be leaving in February, and very unlikely I’d be leaving in March given the “overage of applicants.” My gut tells me I will be in the next group scheduled to leave sometime between April and June.
I couldn’t believe the karmic movement that took place by letting go! My Life Coach called me the poster child for the “Law of Attraction.” 🙂
So, I went through my house, took inventory of my belongings, and started my lists: For Sale — Giveaways — Keep — Donate — Loan — Trash [insert sigh of contentment here.]